*SMACK!!!*

"Once we lose sight of God, we begin to be reckless. We cast off certain restraints from activities we know are wrong. We set prayer aside as well and cease having God’s vision in the little things of life. We simply begin to act on our own initiative. If we are eating only out of our own hand, and doing things solely on our own initiative without expecting God to come in, we are on a downward path."

my utmost for His highest

so after a day like today, i think that segment of my devos this morning really hit hard. mmm.. i'm SOOO tired... still so sleepie... =P grrr... just been a crazie busy week... like insanely busy week... and a few more to come too!! itz so bad, i look at each week now not by where it is in the month, but what i have due and what i have to do... stinkz... =P but itz great that God's still smacking me when i need to be smacked... *sigh* Fatherly love... =D anywayz.. i still can't fathom how i've made it alive thus far... had two tests this week and i'm still alive and kickin... next week i have a buncha stuff to do, and the same with the week after.. then the week after that... EXAMZ!!! eeekk!!! but the great part is.. after i get it all done and over with.. i never hafta write another high school exam again!!! yippeee!!! but that just meanz that i move onto even more stressful univ examz =/ eeeekkk... itz like the whole outta the frying pan into the fire concept... meh... God'll keep me safe... =D

so today on itz own wuz busy... i didn't even get to see my house until 9:45pm or so tonite... after i left the house this morning i never saw it again till tonite... *sigh* it wuz still a fun day nonetheless tho... play day at good ol' bafoon... =D hehehee.. learned how to make cotton candy and got to play on this basketball bungee thingy.... stinkz that i couldn't play on the obstacle course tho...=/ and yah.. i basically got to chill with my friends... got to catch up and talk with some ppl that i rarely see nowadayz... and got to just have fun,... only went to like two classes today... oh my... it wuz SOOO hard to stay awake in fisix.. then had to work after.. but meh... itz arrite.. the nite went by prettie fast.. PRAISE GOD!!! then tmw! oh my... well 'nuff bout all the stuff i hafta do... i guess after reading the devo i realized that i'm in the danger zone of getting too busy and losing sight of God.. gotta keep remembering to keep my eyes on the prize... God's heart. lately i've been finding it harder and harder to find time just to sit and literally BE STILL.. like mosta the time i'm alwayz doing two thingz at once and what not... but yah... learning how important it is just to spend quality time with God... =) i think i should talk to Him more often.., like it doesn't even hafta be like "prayer language" or what not... i can just whine and vent and be the persistent child that He's claimed me as... =) PRAISE GOD!!!!

anywayz... still have tonz of stuff to do.. and i really really need to catch up on my zzzZZzzz's... i can't wait till summer... *sigh* meh.. ther's a season for everything... =) but yah... need God to send some refreshing rain at the moment... either that or precious sleep... =D just need something to get me up and going again... physically... spiritually i'm prettie cool.. =D just gotta remember to not be too busy to pray...=/ nehoo.. thaz all for me for now.. thingz in life are going prettie great... thinkin more and more about how i'm gonna miss my friends when we're all out there supposedly being "grown-ups" but yeh... God'll sustain the friendships... and i've alwayz got my basics... wheee!!! love 'em! =D

*hazel needs sleep*

wow school's tiring... and i only had one class this morning... meh.. watevr... got to talk to some old friends during a very VERY boring tap session. i dun get why we still have tap when we're graduating.. i mean ther's really only so much to know about university apps and what not... well yah.. so they were talking about living on res and the stuff u should do to survive first year, all stuff i know cuz i have more than enuff ppl that are in uni to refer to... =)

anyhow... 'nuff of the useless stuff... i still haven't blogged about coffeehouse.. well mini-coffeehouse... ack!!! it wuz TOTALLY insane! arrite.. so we didn't really get the 100% for sure from our teacher that she wuz gonna supervise coffeehouse until like monday afterschool or so... and no one was prepped with posters or announcements or nething... so we didn't have ANY advertisements... none at all.. we didn't have a speaker... or any AV equipment aside from the amps that our guitarists (or geetarists as nat likes to say...=) brought... and we were missing tonz of transparencies... but PRAISE GOD for providing... =)

so this is what happened.... wednesday april 30, 2003
3:30pm - hazel and jason park go to the cafe to start setting up
3:40pm - worship team sets up, hazel finds that we don't have transparencies
3:45pm - hazel and jason RUN to mr. lee and beg him to photocopy transparencies for us; mr. lee being the awesome teacher that he is offers to print it off on a laser printer instead, right off the web... chords and everything... =)
3:50pm - still printing out transparencies (yes.. thats how may we were missing); jason runs back down to the cafe and tells the leaders of the various teams to pray in the back of the cafe for the upcoming fellowship time
3:55pm - still printing.... the games team starts up with a few games here and there (hazel still doesn't know how many ppl are in the cafe at this point in time)

so yah.. that wuz like the half hour before we actually STARTED.. which was around 4 or so... the games team did a lot of games... ppl got involved, it was awesome... God's soooo good! so i walk into the cafe around 4... and see A LOT of ppl... did a quick headcount... 40 ppl... jason and i run off into the hallway to pray... then we go back into the cafe and we start worship...

overall it wuz an amazing time...we finished at around 5:15 or so.. and we didnt' even get in trouble for going past 5 like we normally do... we had food... and yah.. just great times for fellowship.. and testimonies.. oh my... we only really had one testimony and like a mini-sermon c/o jason.. hehehe.. whooo!!! i see him being a pastor in the future!!! hahahah.. but yah.. it wuz awesome... the fact that we hardly did anything.. and still had 40 ppl come.. you KNOW thatz gotta be God's doing... only Him... i mean it makes no sense that ppl would come when we didnt' even advertise or nething.. and that things would go off so smoothly even when we were missing so many things... =P but PRAISE GOD!!!! it wuz amazing... can't wait to see what else He's gonna do... =)

anyhow... thaz coffeehouse... i'm gonna be soooo stinkin busy for like the rest of may... argh... don't like being so busy.. =( ANYhowz.. i should get some stuff done.. be productive in my spare... =D God bless... don't have anything in mind for verses... just keep praying and keep persevering...